| Hey guys. Okay, so basically a lot of you know that in yfc and such I have drifted...far... Well the truth is, there was lots going on, I made some bad decisions (such as push yfc farther) and in the end, ended up being somewhere terrible. But last Friday, I went to "Marchfest '07" at Fleetwood Church, and the praise and worship felt so good, especially with everything that's been going on. It was the first time in about five months that I did a full out worship.All was fine and dandy, then the lead vocals of Fleetwood Praise Team, took a few moments to mention how the he hoped for the next song (Set Me Free) everyone really put their all into it, because he knows that everyone has something going wrong and one time or another, some being really hard to let go of and just a really big struggle to deal with. Then he shared how he went through a rough break-up and everything he said (although it was of few words) totally hit me. As the song started to play, I caught on quite fast, and it was so uplifting to feel so free. Free of all the pressures, struggles and everything that was hindering me in my service and my relationship with God. After that, the whole night just seemed so much better. Everything was such a blessing. I was able to "let go, and let God" for the first time, ever actually. Just totally and completely surrender myself, even if it was just for the night or the weekend, because well eventually I had to face reality, but because of that one night, the struggles aren't so difficult anymore. That night I met amazing people, shared laughs and experiences, praised together, prayed together, and just had an amazing night all around.
The next morning, I went to GIBC for the morning service, and to top off all the relief that I was feeling, all the acceptance and forgiveness I felt the night before, and just the feeling of coming back closer to God, we sang, "Heart of Worship" and it just hit me smack in the face. Everything is finally back as it should be. Half the things that were going wrong, are either cleared up, or I learned and moved on from. It's in my past and there is nothing I can do to change it now, but I wouldn't even if I wanted to because I wouldn't know a lot of the lessons I do now. The time of struggle I went through was clearly hard, and at many times lonely, but eventually I made it through and now I couldn't be happier.
The rest of the Sunday was also amazing and Christ-centered. I went to the Kids Fun Day and Corpus and helped out there and was even asked to give a talk, which was amazing to hear that I am still welcome. It meant to so much to see everyone again in full out service, to see the kids again and hear them sing "Making Mealodies". BTW; HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTONIO! yeah-yuh! You're sixteen! And to end the night I went to mass at SFDS. It was a much needed and much wanted experience. Now there is one last thing I have to say: HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANJA MILOTIC! "sweet sixteen, my chance to shine, sweet sixteen, discovering, sweet sixteen, so much more to life, sweet sixteen." Good luck on your L test. VOLIM TE LJU....something hahaha man i forgot..thought it would be so smooth :( oh and these girls mean the world to me..where would I be without you?
oh well...until next time, take care bubi<3 |
